sometimes
when the night is very still
you feel peace
peace we all long for
peace we need
to get away from it all
so quiet
as if the earth stood still
and you don't hear a thing
even your heart seems to stop beating
feels like the universe have grown silent
and they forgot you were ever here
everything's dead
no, not quite - asleep
it's hard to describe
it's...
it's like
the stillness before two long, drawn out breaths
after you push the air of out your lungs so very
gently
the pause that exists between
just before taking your next

for someone like me
those moments are so special
these are times
the voices in my head are still

so quiet here
the stillness
flying, floating, drifting in peace
somewhere
between being awake and falling asleep
where reason gave way to imagination
between a wish and a dream
where reason unravel and fantasies begin
this moment
here
you are accepted without prejudice
falling into open arms
warm eyes
softness enveloping you
taking everything in
the anger, hate, fear...
weaknesses
the sins, insecurities, and everything in
between...
defects
they don't matter
they don't...
matter
not important
anymore...

a smile
it's not love, it's
greater
unconditional
pure

much like death
you see everything you did
faces past, names long gone
stories not written
loves unrequited
and words never spoken
you wish you can take it all back
but you know you can't
you have to accept what you did
who you are
what you have become
this moment, this time
you can't hide from yourself
the most honest moment in your life
like saying i love you
to your first love
or
holding your baby in your arms
looking past his eyes
into a heart that once beat underneath yours
or
saying one last goodbye
to someone as much as part of yourself
as you are to them

always fleeting
never staying
never remembered
but i...
i...
i remember

so hard to hold on to
just a little bit longer
a little bit
a little
bit
longer
a bit
...

"let it go"
i'm so sorry
so sorry
i was not strong enough
not strong enough to save you
to save
...
me

"let it go"
i'm sorry i was not strong enough
to go with you
strong enough to remember you
i...
can't even remember
your name
your face

"let me go"
a face,
a voice,
a touch
and everything became clear

and i let go