sebuah lagu terus mengiang
di telingaku
'wish you were here
the ocean looks like a thousand
diamonds strewn across a blue blanket
...and in this moment i feel happy'
untuk sejenak semua terlihat begitu jauh
dan tak ada yg menahan hatiku
untuk pergi ke tempatmu berada.
Dan aku seperti kembali ke rumah, ke dirimu.
begitu dekat,
aku bisa merasakan hangatmu
di sisiku.
Namamu terasa
manis di bibirku, sambil perlahan, lirih ku ucapkan dalam rindu.

---

Masih terlalu dini
mengatakan cinta
tapi ku tahu cinta tak ada
tanpamu
aku tahu yg kucari
selama ini ada padamu
dan aku hanya menunggu
berusaha tak mengganggu
saat-saat
bersamamu
karena tak ada yang lain
tak pernah dan tak akan
yang lain
tak ada
bersamamu

---

aku tak ingin
status, pangkat, derajat
all i want is to be
missed
needed
loved
atau lebih tepat
chosen to be loved
betapa sulitnya
bermain sandiwara ini
dimana aku harus memakai topeng
di depanmu
dan berusaha untuk tak menyentuhmu
karena tiap sentuhan hanya membuatku nyeri
tak tahan menahan
begitu lembutnya kamu
tak tahan melihatmu begitu dekat
tapi begitu jauh
aku tak mau mengotorimu
aku tak mau menyakitimu
aku akan pergi
sementara hatiku menjerit memintamu
untuk melarangku pergi
dan aku kan menuruti
bila kamu minta
tapi kamu juga akan pergi
apakah disini kita seharusnya berpisah?
Must it end this way?
Sejujurnya aku tak tahu, kita masing-masing
mempunyai hidup yang terpisah,
a world without each other
a world of our own
dan aku menghormati pilihanmu,
sebagaimana kamu menghormati pilihanku
if you're willing,
give me one last dance,
one last night
ending in one last kiss
untuk melepasmu
hingga kita bertemu lagi

---

i don't know if this obscure painting of thoughts
will ever get to you
this letter is already too long
so, an end then
but not a farewell
a wish,
no, not a wish
a hope
for you've touch so many lives
and maybe, just maybe
help them realize
what their dreams are, their hopes
and their love
keep on writing
and maybe the world just might become a better place for all
thank you
---

what happened?
I do not know
but i feel hurt
as if someone ripped out my heart
and cut it into little, tiny pieces
now i'm just limping around
till you kept your word
to return my heart after you're done with it

---

hey
how long has it been?
a few days at least, but it felt like an eternity
every moment without you here feels like eternity
what do you expect?
there's a hole where my heart was
and i don't know how long, or how much of this i can take
sometimes all of this became too much
and i just can't take it
but then i remember
i remember you
i remember how you'd look at me
how you smile brightens my day
and how your laughter becomes the most beautiful sound i've ever heard
and then the pain becomes bearable
and i knew then
as i know now
that everything will be allright
somehow, someway
i just have to bare this
because you're worth it
but then again, what's the trouble of losing my heart
for the chance to have everything
with you?
---

So don't stop looking
Don't stop hoping
And don't ever stop loving
Cause somewhere out there
Is a guy with your name in his heart
And you haven't look at it
Or he haven't show it
But it's there
It's there
---

terimakasih
untuk cinta yang kau berikan
walau kau tak sadar
walau kau tak tahu
karena kau selalu berada disana
tanpa mempertanyakan
tanpa permintaan
saat saat seperti ini
aku menginginkanmu
berada dekat
dan aku bagaikan seorang bodoh
melihatmu sambil berpikir
apa yang ku lakukan
sehingga berhak mendapat
kesempatan bersama mu
walau hanya sebentar,
walau hanya sesaat
dan aku tak pernah habis berpikir
mengapa sebuah senyum kecil
dapat berarti begitu besar
dan sebuah kecupan
bisa terasa begitu manis
ah, andai kau tahu
bahwa tawamu seakan membuat
dunia terasa jauh
dan aku seakan pecah menjadi ribuan keping
ketika kamu bersandar padaku
dan pada saat itu,
untuk sejenak,
semua amarah, benci dan luka
terasa hilang dan tak berarti
tak pernah berarti
hanya kau
yang berarti
saat ini, disini
kekuatan apa yang kau miliki
sehingga seluruh kemarahan yang kupendam
hilang ditelan hangat badanmu

---

tiga kali
namamu kusebut
bagai mantra yang akan
membawaku pergi ke sisimu
does it work?
Aku tak peduli
aku melakukannya untuk
menjaga ingatanku
akan dirimu
suaramu dan tawamu
bagaimana kau menatapku
dan untuk sesaat
aku berada di sisimu kembali
sementara itu,
love will lead you back täylor dayne
mengantarkan kesadaranku
pergi ke impianmu

---

everyday
i get up
without a clue
what will happen next
everyday
i go to work
to a crooked job
and an asshole boss
for no apparent reasons
everyday
everyday until i met you
and realize that it all doesn't matter
that it's all trivial
that i gladly accept them
day in, däy out
for a chance to be with you
to look into the eyes where i saw heaven
and inside the arms i call home
my lips shiver with the memory of you
i tremble with fear
but hoping for the words
mouthed on yours
i live only for the day
i can see you, be with you
and to know that you're safe
and happy
and here
after that i would be very happy
for a ghost of a chance
to share a life with you
this is my dream
this is the place where i go
whenever i sleep, i'm awake
whenever i ate, drink
everyday
everyday
---

last night i dreamed of you
and my heart forgets the longing
for just a moment
and everything is beautiful
though they pale in your presence
even if it's only an illusion
i hear your voice and i find peace
solace in solitude
my heart stop beating
and then i remember
the words:
the space between
where you smile and hide
is where you'll find me if i get to go
the space between
the bullets in our firefight
is where you'll find me hiding waiting for you
the space between
what's wrong and right
is where you'll find me hiding waiting for you
the space between
your heart and mine
is the space we'll fill with time
so my love
the space between now and the day you're here again is the emptiness i
must endure
and i will
yes i will

---

i think i'm in love
no, i know i'm in love
i'm in love with the most beautiful person
who showed me the heaven in her eyes
a person whom with grace and love
welcomes me into her arms
the only place i long for
i'm in love with a person
who showed me
that there is another wäy
and with her heart
she melts my sadness away
my sorrow ebbing like frost in springtime
and i love her
totally, completely, irrevocably
that it feels like dying everytime i'm apart from her
since there is not a day i want to spend for the rest of my life
without her
what do i do?
what do i do?

---

Hello
my love, my life
i've been searching everywhere
only to find you're here all along
and now i've finally found you
i don't know how i could go on
a day, a moment without the thought of you
let me be the thought behind your smile
and the reason for your laughter
for i'm incomplete when you're not here
even if i'm living a lie, so be it
because i know no other truth than you
and your love
---

you'd ask if i believe
and though we have our own
i do believe
i believe in love, and beauty, and fate
i believe fate has brought me here
and things don't just happen without a reason
as for meanings, i believe we make our own, mine could be different from
yours
but they are no less preclous, and no more than fleeting memories
i believe in what we have, and what lies ahead
and then i know i can go anywhere, do anything, anytime
cause i know
you're always there
so you see, i do believe
i believe in you

---

you are the calm i seek
the truth that i can count on
for everything else is just an illusion
to which i know
my time with you are not
i cherish each moment
as if they were the most fragile thing in existence
for they are more precious to me than eternity and infinity
when i think of you
i remember each detail, every word
and then i can't seem to hold back my tears
in awe of your beauty and loveliness
with grace you kiss your goodbyes
my memories of you must do as sustenance for another lonely night
so now i can rest
slipping away into the night
---

you come to me in my dreams
dancing to an obscure background
always in beauty
always in grace
like water each movement you make flows around me
i feel my heart tremble from your sheer beauty
from the warmth your heart pours
into every move, every note
but you are so far away
so far away